I love you so much and I’m terrified to tell you.

Thats how I know it’s real. 

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It really grinds my gears when

People find out I have gauged ears or tattoos and say ‘oh I didn’t know you where that type of girl’ So I have to be a type? I’m just being myself, I don’t do it to try and fit in with anyone. My tattoos mean something to me and I just personally like the way gauges look on me. Let people do what they want, if they like it then more power to them, don’t be so closed minded and group people.

I love when my boyfriend calls me to tell me about his day :)

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I can’t handle this…

Everything that has been going on the past few days is really getting to me. It makes me want to go back to old habits that I thought I had gotten over. It’s creeping over me and I don’t know how much longer I can fight this feeling before I give in. I’m not strong enough to deal with all of this right now. 

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I don’t even know…

I had plans with a friend, her friend and my boyfriend tomorrow, her friend had to unfortunately bail because of schoolwork then my friend said she didn’t wanna ‘third wheel’ so I said wed just do it next week, told my boyfriend, and then she found someone else but i said wed just do it as planned another week, especially since we were going to a farm and I’m getting over some sinus stuff its probably better that way anyway but that her and I could still hang out later in the day tomorrow like we planned when my boyfriend has to go to work, then she repeatedly tells me she wants to be alone then goes on facebook and posts about having no social life. I dont know what to do anymore. I’m so confused. 

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Wish I would have bought this sweater today…
Leaving soon to get my second tattoo!!!

So nervous and excited at the same time!!! Wish me luck!! 

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Soooo I have a boyfriend now….

Is this real life? If not please dont tell me… 

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My dad had another heart attack this morning.

Its terrifying to wake up to an ambulance and looking out the window and seeing it in your driveway loading up your father. My dad is my rock and one fucking amazing human being. He is my hero and to see him that weak and being put in an ambulance made me physically I’ll and I completely lost it. He is stable now but had a blockage and a blood clot in-between 2 stents that he has from previous heart attacks. He now has 7 stents total. I think this was brought on by stress because he was laid off on friday, from a company he has worked at for almost 11 years. My mom and brother have also been out of work so as of right now I am the only one in my family with a job. All of these things are just getting to be too much. I normally try not to post long personal rants on tumblr or ask for peoples prayers because I don’t really even know if I necessarily believe in any type of higher power right now. This is the only way that I know to get all of this off my chest to try and start feeling better but if you can, please, please keep my dad in your thoughts and or prayers because I really need him to be okay. Thank you if you actually took the time to read this.

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Tomorrow is my last day as a teenager….

when the fuck did that happen. 

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Loving my new shirt. Gonna be wearin it to warped tour! So excitedd!!
Anonymous: I was looking through some of you old posts and saw you answered that you had struggled with self harm, I too struggled with it and I know how hard it is to stop but you seem like an amazing person and I hope you can find the strength to stop soon. Chin up beautiful, it'll all get better soon. :)

Oh my gosh, this just made my day and I needed it so much, thank you! I’ve been clean for a little over a week from any from of self harm, I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t hard but I have a few good friends who know and have helped me, I normally don’t like to acknowledge my problems, even on tumblr because some of my friends don’t know about it but follow me so now I guess they will know if they actually read this. But thank you anon, this means a lot. <3